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ten.10.oh6

R.I.P.
Sakia Gunn
May 26th, 1987 - May 11th, 2003
I've Only Just Begun.
I`m a native Philadelphian of Jamaican, Cuban and Black American lineage. I`m an actor/vocalist at heart and by trade, but I currently work in the transportation industry, as well as the retail industry. I`m a 5`9", light-bright Philly boi with short hair, deep brown eyes and seven piercings. I`m a Gemini with Leo rising - take it as you may. I'm human. People call me Lisa Simpson because I can make love to a tenor sax. I`m a very simple person, yet I`m more complex and thorough than you`ll ever know. Never complicated, but never assume that you know "me." You may not be ready for "me" or what I have to say. I'll leave that up to YOU to decide.

I`m always changing my colors, just like a chameleon. However, don`t mistake my natural changes in life for being fake. I`m always real, trust that one. I never forget that change is a natural part of life and that stagnant, unchanging things die. I plan on livin`, how about y`all? Everyone tells me that I`m a sweetheart and that I`m really nice. Does that mean that you should take my kindness for weakness? Everyone say it with me - "HELLLLLLL NOOOOOOO." When I turn off, I can turn off pretty damn cold. I can be very quiet at times, and I`m very observant. I like to sit back and take in the scenery. However, when I`m with my buddies, I cut up like nobody`s business. I`m "chronologically challenged" (my azz is always late), but I never disappoint once I show my face in the place.

Do you think that I look familiar? Probably do. Think ya seen me somewhere before? Probably have. I`m like a Visa card - I`m everywhere you wanna be.
My .25 (Inflation Is A Bitch)
I find it very sad and disturbing that I didn`t hear about the murders of Shani Baraka (daughter of Amiri and Amira Baraka) and her partner Rayshon Holmes until 2/25/04. Their murders took place August 2003. AUGUST 2003. Did their murders receive little to no media coverage because they were Black women? Was it because a Black man killed them? Was it because they were gay?
Whatever the case may be, we all need to fight against racism, sexism, domestic violence, and homophobia (among other issues) in every way possible. Please remember that feminism and the fight against homophobia don`t weaken the fight against racism. When we strengthen all of the links of the unit, the struggle can only move forward. Here`s a tidbit of info - on a wall in the Holocaust Museum in Washington are inscribed the words of a Protestant minister who lived in Germany during the days of the Third Reich. It reads in part as follows: "When they came for the Jews, I did not speak out because I was not a Jew, When they came for the Catholics, I did not speak out because I was not a Catholic, When they came for the Protestants, there was no one left to speak out for me."
Speak up for your brothers and sisters lest you be left with no one to speak up for you.

I haven't been here in over a year. Wow. I thought that I was just gonna let this page die, but why? Good question, right? Right. Nah, maybe not, but allow me my moment of narcississm, dammit.
READ A FUCKING BOOK.
I'm currently reading Questions that Matter : An Invitation to Philosophy (5th ed.), edited by L. Miller and Jon Jenson. Intro to Philosophy is one of the four classes that I'm taking this fall, and I just have to say that this class is the SHIT. Capital letters, y'all. Here's the thing - we've only met twice. Needless to say, I'm absolutely hooked. I read my textbook for fun. Yup. We're currently working on logic, as well as the different kinds of arguments and such. If you think I'm an argumentative muthafucka now, just you wait until this semester is over...
TURN THE BOOK RIGHT SIDE UP, DEAR.
I've been theatre-less since March. I have gotten over the initial separation anxiety, but it's still hard at times. I feel like a devout Christian who is confronted by a test of faith - am I doing the right thing? Is this where I should be in my journey? How will I manage without my church? I'm sure that I could be farther along in my career, but I'm taking this thang one stop at a time. I'm working two jobs now, plus I'm still going to school full time. I will get back into performing, but I gotta stabilize myself financially and educationally. Man. I never thought I'd be here.
I've begun a new journey in my life, one that involves the often complicated world of gender. I'd like to think that I've been pretty outspoken about gender in recent years, but I've mainly tried to initiate dialogue instead of share MY personal experience with gender and how it relates to my life. I could politicize things and say that I'm genderqueer, I could go to the extreme and say that I'm FTM, hell, I could consider myself a "faggii boii" like a lot of studs/doms/AGs do. However, I will say this - I'm me. I've struggled with gender for a while now. Some of my main battles included taking other people's opinions and perceptions of me to heart when I should have been looking inward to evaluate myself. I've always considered myself to be a boi. Not boy, but boi. I'm just queer as hell. lol That's all there is to it. I trans-cend gender in a lot of ways, and in other ways I may subconsciouly reinforce it. Whatever the case may be, I'm riding this train one stop at a time. I'd like to update this section as time permits.
Me vs. School - Hmmm.
I'm still here, so I guess that's a good thing. I've been alternating between full-time and part-time studies, so I'm ALMOST done. So close, yet so damn far. I'll be going to good ole TU when I'm finished my A.A. Don't know 'bout TU? You better ask somebody!
What Is Biz Bumpin'?
Silence. Times are hard and I haven't purchased a CD in MONTHS. However, I heard India.Arie's latest CD, and I must say that I have fallen in love. I'm determined to buy that CD soon, though.
I'm no longer as easily agitated as I used to be as recently as last year. I try not to let people get the best of me. That's when they win, and I'm ALL about winning. lol jk, but not really.
One Mo' Word -
Fuck an upgrade. Just get a brand new model. :|
u.p.d.a.t.e.
I've been awake since 1:45 AM. Wow. Delirious. I'll be back to update some more, though.
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